The Winter of My Contentment

This Will Be the Winter of My Contentment

Sienna satin waves roll through dusk,
Clean expectations of what’s next,
Unknowing heartens my hold,
Fall wind unfastens the shoulds,
Driftwood carves its own art.

I will receive purpose like a loving child,
Tune and pick that old guitar
As an eager beginner,
Promise the cloud-frothing pastels
I will paint them yet in watercolor.

Light dims my stiffened hands home
Among wafts of camp spaghetti,
Damp leaves, frost coming, and pine.
Gentle I go past tree-huddled teens
In black T-shirts, jeans and goosebumps.

I’m far from that age but recall
Their vast empty calling cards
And loose anticipation
With a hint of driving rain.
I will find my youth again.

Copyright 2024 Laura E. Garrard
All photography by Laura E. Garrard

Solstice Psalm

The long night says
become still, prepare.
Oh how I fight being held,
like a squirmy child,
lips tight, head turned
from sticky cherry syrup
offered on a spoon
from mother’s hand.
I try too hard to heal myself
when I need to fall like sleep
into god’s keep,
the arms of an ancient wood.

Copyright 2024 Laura E. Garrard